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This is a poem I received from my father on my 30 days clean. A true
break-thru in our relationship, it is a daily inspiration to me and shows
how parents really feel about their children during and through their
addiction
The Love of a Father
My heart had been broken I thought it never would heal
So overcome with despair I could no longer feel
My first born child had been taken from me
Held captive by demons that would not let her be
I watched in horror as she traveled this path
A gauntlet I know for I’ve felt the same wrath
I know all too well the pain of being alone
Not knowing of love or the warmth of a home
I had hoped my mistakes would save her such pain
But it didn’t you see and I had to live it again
Only this time it was different as it wasn’t me
For this was my child and I could not make her see
I feared for her life and I feared for her soul
And I desperately hoped she would climb out of that hole
I lay awake in bed praying as best as I knew how
That God would help her, God please help her now
As hours turned to days and days into weeks
My fears and my hopes rose and fell like twin peaks
Then one day a call came from a voice I knew not
They told me my daughter was brought in on a cot
They told me she was hopeless and she had no one to call
That she had burned all her bridges and it was now time to fall
But this angel from God she knew better you see
Because she picked up the phone and she dialed me
When I walked in the door I could not believe my own eyes
Because I saw the shell of a person with no will to try
I told her I loved her and that the nightmare could end
All she need to do is give me her hand
For the love of a father is simple and true
And sometimes all it takes is to start anew
So know that you are never and I mean never alone
And that two lives were saved when I picked up the phone
Never question your right to be happy in life
For it can be achieved despite all the strife
Look to your children and their eyes full of hope
If you look long enough you won’t ever need dope.
Thomas J.
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