I hate you and I hate that you have stolen from me

I hate that you betrayed me and all of the lies you fed me

I hate the fake feelings, thoughts, life and years I shared with you

I despise and regret the romance from hell that we shared

For I gave you all of me mind body and soul

I know I turned my self over to your hands or should I say CLAWS

For I bare the scares left from your claws clenching into me as I so many times I've tried to get away"

I remember, you had no mercy, even as I cried and begged for help, you just consoled me with a temporary euphoria, only to trap and stab me in the back as you betrayed me once again.

You literally sucked the life out of me and the will to live it.

I became so depressed and angry at the world that I eventually did what you did; I joined in and gave myself some scares as well.

You even took my freedom, self respect and my children

The worst part was that I fell for it!!!!!!!!!!!

Willingly then GOD knows unwillingly

GOD! Yes! It was until I realized that I couldn't fight you on my own (for I was powerless-- a well and reparative proven fact)

That I instead of crying to you, to let me go

I cried out to God and LET HIM

I gave him my heart,( he restored my) mind  body and

Gave him my soul!

You had me so spun out, bound dazed and deceived, that I had felt to hopeless, unworthy and weak to cry out to him before

But in reality that is when he is with us the most!

For when we are weak he is strong

I only had to be willing to turn my LIFE over to him

Instead of trying to live my life on the world's terms and do it by my own will.

After all I had no will anymore, I lost it the day I lost the will to fight giving into you!

You are a prime example of hell on earth!

For hell is all we shared, and was left in the end

Confused, perverted, hateful, heartless, selfish, murderous,

Abusive, all that came to be me,

Was accepted by someone pure, loving, sinless, powerful, selfless, forgiving, and holy!

He was able to heal me and deliver me from your claws!

He restored my sight and I am no longer blind

He was there, hurting watching and waiting- and waiting- And waiting with open arms for me to put myself into his embrace, never to let me go

Though he was there the whole time he wouldn't and couldn't make the decision for me and make and me do what he wanted. Because he is NOTHING like you are!!

He doesn't make me love him

He never intoxicated my senses, tricked me or hypnotized my mind or consumed me with disease so that I was addicted and have no escape!

HE is the truth and the truth never lies! Never lies like you!!!!!!!!

He is love and love never forces itself, or manipulates with temptation and feelings that are not real!

He hurt when I chose you but he sent someone to help and gave me another chance to choose and I chose him!!!!!!!

 I know that you exist somewhere in my past and will always be there waiting to catch me off guard and you will try to trip me up as you have before, on a mission to get me back to destroy me

I know that you are not alone and you have a legion of demons behind you- for you are only they're tool

BUT I will never again let my guard down, and never again live my life without god! He has given me even a greater multitude of angels to battle with me!!!!!!!!!!

I am powerless alone so that he can be powerful in me!!!!!!!!!!!

And guess what......... I LIVE although you may exist

And you now   ONLY exist because I now live!!!!!

God has given me a new life and now more abundantly through him and only him

I now fight watch and pray

 so that I never with you again ever spend another day!!!

                                      Till never!!!!!!! Mayra Valles

           Seal by the blood of Jesus Christ my GOD, my lord MY SAVIOR