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My husband is an addict. His addiction has destroyed our marriage and our
family.
I have been married for almost three years all of which of been filled with
thousands of nightmares. Before we married I thought he was a fun loving guy
who lived to drink and smoke pot but could quit at any point. But after we
finalized our relationship under God I realized this was no longer the case.
He began cheating on me with girls and staying gone for days at a time. I
soon recognized his addiction and he began to admit to his problem. He
started attending NA and attempting to work the steps but as I sit here
today he still struggles. He can't go very long without relapsing and the
damage that comes along with it is devastating. The anticipation of his
"relapsing" is heart-wrenching and the wondering if he is high is literally
hell.
I now sit in this house alone with two little girls who desperately miss
their daddy. He says we are "better off" if he is gone but little does he
knows that by being gone is only putting himself out "there" again.
I know that if I continue to stay on God's side he will pull me thru this. I
pray for my husband everyday and hope that he finds his way out of this
nightmare. Until then I will continue to be the best mother I know how to be
and hope that he finds it in himself to stay clean...."just for today."
God Bless all of you. |
