I am not a crack addict. As a matter of fact, I have never tried crack cocaine. But
the effects of crack spread beyond the user.
Almost two years ago, I had met a guy and we ended up living together. I had felt
happy for once and looked forward to every day enjoying our life together. After
some time of living together it was brought to my attention that he was using crack
cocaine while I was at work. Although I did not believe it, eventually it came clear
to me that his lack of money must have been due to his drug use. He began to depend
on me for a roof over his head, food, everything, while he secretly spent money on
drugs.
Over the course of a year, he (I will call him Billy) was waiting for an inheritance
check to arrive from his fathers estate. Once the check arrived, he left me. It was
over a month that he left his clothes in our home. When I finally forced him to pick
them up, he was still wearing the clothes he had left with, looked dirty and
disheveled and was far from the person I knew. He was cold and rushed to leave.
When he left, he left me with all the bills leaving me in severe financial hardship.
My house has since gone into foreclosure. I have not heard from him since but have
learned since that he is addicted to crack cocaine.
The money he received is near gone from his crack habit. Those who have seen him
have told stories of his reckless and promiscuous and paranoid behavior. He was
initially slim and athletic in build. Since, he is said to have lost probably 30
pounds. His teeth are separating and decaying and he is virtually unrecognizable.
This has all happened in 5 short months. He has had many run-ins with the law and
car accidents...one so severe it could have killed him. But crack may do that
quicker.
I am heart broken and depressed. I do not know him anymore. Any attempts I have made
to get him help (call his family, tell others to urge him to come to me if he wants
me to help him) have been in vain.
To those who may read this, I would like you to know that crack effects more than
just the user. Those who love you are living a life of worry and suffering. If we
could all say just one thing to you, it would be that we love you and beg that you
will get help yourself or ask us to help you. Although it may be very very hard to
break the habit, crack and crack dealers are not your friends. They do not love you.
We do. Please, please......start today by asking for help.
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